Over the past couple of years, I have been relentlessly trying to live my life at my own pace-doing what is comfortable for me. As comfortable as I was becoming, things in my life were not getting accomplished. Though we live in the world, we do not have to do things of the world. I need to do things in order-Godspeed. I am...an intellectual introvert who battles with "disappointments" on a daily basis. Food for thoughts, huh? How about food for action? Speaking my mind is something that I can express through many medias. But, my actions, yes...my actions are my downfall because my actions never become to be. As the clock struck 12:00am and January 1st became official, flashes of all the promises, deadlines, job restraints, family, career choices wrapped their places in my heart...but there was still emptiness-a void. Hmmmm...I work everyday to earn a paycheck; I buy items of fashion to produce individual sex appeal; I write stories and poetry because it humbles my heart, but as much of a Christian man that I claim to be...I do not give God enough time. I make excuses. I do not make excuses when I have to report to work; I make sure to drive to mall to start to process of creating 'sex appeal'. God has done so much for me and I have done so little to praise, honor and worship him.
He is the king of all kings, the Lord of all Lords...when I think about the sacrifice that God has done for someone like me who sins on a daily basis...wow! I am still living and breathing when I know I was one of the Satan's puppets. Because of his grace and mercy and of his stripes, I am healed. Though we live in the world, we do not have to do things of the world. For 2009, I am striving to do things-Godspeed. I have a testimony...an unspoken one
