"Come home," I said while sobbing peacefully in my dreams. Time elapsed and sent us in separate corners of the world, but the Love that burns in my soul for you cannot be extinguished with paperwork, hatred-filled words, and drafted lies.How is it possible to let go when I wrapped everything possible to give you around my heart: I refuse to untie the knot...
Simple love directed by a hard head, now the reality of welcoming me back inside the most detailed organ in your body now gives space to a superficial being that was given a human name, but his name is spelled different from mines.
Where do I go from here? I wish I could have wiped all the dirt from my past on the welcome mat and walked through those marital doors as a clean, upright, and righteous man. Instead, I gave pathway for Satan to label me, not believing he was out to personally seek, kill, and destroy me.
Repent I did. But it came at a cost:
I said Good-bye to that Lady in my life. I did not want to, I promise you. I said Good-bye with a purpose in mind. I said Good-bye with remorseful tears in my eyes. I said Good-bye without knowing if I would ever again be significant in her life. I said Good-bye because there was no "we" Because I thought "I". I said Good-bye because I needed more of her and Less of GOD in my life.
When I entered my house for the very first time, I never cleaned my feet on the welcome mat, usually stepping over it.
When I left my house for the last time, both feet placed on the mat, the cleansing would begin.
Healing...
