Rebirth Day-20

My heart and mind had a contest: Who could heal first.

My heart had a huge hole in its core where the blood flow was minimal and sometimes leaking in places that were uncommon.

On the other hand, my mind, always thinking and plotting about things I physically cannot control, found refuge in bullshit and confusion. No longer a product of my past: Newness has finally found a home.

Rebirth Day 19: Chris Walker - Giving You All My Love

Rebirth Day-18

Carrying the burden of not protecting a heart that was as fragile as mines

Some days are better than others

Bended knees and arms extended to heaven's borders

For the millionth times, I asked God for forgiveness.

I remained in silence without prayer, thought, or a single word to give God

Hoping that my heart's murmurs are heard along side of the anxiety of not knowing what is forthcoming.

Somedays I wish I were perfect: Everything I do and say would be right on time.

But I run red lights symbolic of how I analyze my own processes that language my life.

English please!

What is a man supposed to do after he has lost everything?

I pray and hope and reach and want and cry and ponder and dream and pray and pray, but my eagerness makes me forget about patience.

Down the alter I walk and swallowing heavy because I am about to embark on a new walk, new attitude and a new forgiveness: Forgiving myself.

My head is down, not due to sadness, but surrendering my thoughts upon my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ because when I am ready my head will rise and my "Rebirth" will begin.