Rebirth Day-17

There is soulful music calming the inner-most parts of my soul

You and I dancing the night away

Falling in a love trance, captivated by your smile that reminds me of Home.

With no intent of wanting to fall in love again, I grab your hands for security

My heart delicate and piercing with wants, desires, afraid of heartbreak and bad conclusions.

Don't really know how much I am capable of giving.

But that soulful music dancing around in my soul

Spinning to a heavenly tune that allows closeness in standing room only

With you, I have won.

Able to justify the way I feel by allowing my actions to dictate my thoughts

Dance with me; Don't dare let me go.

Let the music play and fine tune my heart to the perfect melody

So the reward will be our love becoming an endless classic that embodies perfection in its essence

And agape love through sacrifice and willingness.

The finish is nearing but our love has just begun.

I watch you under the perfect light that seasons your beauty beyond measure

Oh, my love, my love, my love

This is so right.

Never do I want the music to end.

Rebirth Day-16

Wasn't the best listener / Wasn't the best friend at times / Didn't always do the things that mattered most in my heart / I yearn for a re-start / Where we could interlock our hands once again and remind you how much I need you here / This re-start is lonely and scary / No one to lay my feelings to rest upon / No one to kiss good-night / No one to wake up happy to / No one to battle life with / I was a second late / I had stopped briefly to pick up some flowers for you / Cause I know my moods seemed to always get to you /We battled everyday to solve issues that pushed us further and further apart / 11 years of hope / salted and dissolved in one single tear / I cried for months / starving my feelings on confusion and fear / Fear is not of God / I stopped crying / Instead / I mourned the lost of love, hope, and faith that We would be ok / But those days are far and few / But / never allowing separation to take away the Love between You and I that is Heavenly true / I will always love you through the test of time / My heart is on the line / cause I still see you as mine / Forever we will be / The crying, remorse, disappointment will remain / as will my tears.

Rebirth Day-15

I sit in solitude wondering how did I get to this place where I am restricted from placing my arms around you. Weary from the confusion of the cards life has dealt me, I attempt to reach out beyond the restrictive barriers of these jail bars, yet, you are so far out of my reach. I yell out "Come back, Come back...I am sorry Honey" but as I wiped the tears away from my eyes that blurred me from glancing at you one more time, within that nano-second you were gone.

How can I protect you baby?

How can I make love to you baby?

How can I date you baby?

No way can I picture you with another man baby!

How can I be a full-time father to our kids baby?

I am guilty as charged. My pride separated us. My ego divorced us. But my Love for you gives me hope for us.

Keep Trying: Dont Give Up on Who you Love!

Rebirth Day-14

"Come home," I said while sobbing peacefully in my dreams. Time elapsed and sent us in separate corners of the world, but the Love that burns in my soul for you cannot be extinguished with paperwork, hatred-filled words, and drafted lies.

How is it possible to let go when I wrapped everything possible to give you around my heart: I refuse to untie the knot...

Simple love directed by a hard head, now the reality of welcoming me back inside the most detailed organ in your body now gives space to a superficial being that was given a human name, but his name is spelled different from mines.

Where do I go from here? I wish I could have wiped all the dirt from my past on the welcome mat and walked through those marital doors as a clean, upright, and righteous man. Instead, I gave pathway for Satan to label me, not believing he was out to personally seek, kill, and destroy me.

Repent I did. But it came at a cost:

I said Good-bye to that Lady in my life. I did not want to, I promise you. I said Good-bye with a purpose in mind. I said Good-bye with remorseful tears in my eyes. I said Good-bye without knowing if I would ever again be significant in her life. I said Good-bye because there was no "we" Because I thought "I". I said Good-bye because I needed more of her and Less of GOD in my life.

When I entered my house for the very first time, I never cleaned my feet on the welcome mat, usually stepping over it.

When I left my house for the last time, both feet placed on the mat, the cleansing would begin.

Healing...

We Face Many Storms in our Lives, But Joy Comes in the Morning!

Rebirth Day 13

Never was a fan of endings of stories or songs;

Words hurt, but I write them out of Love.

Sometimes I walk the earth with my head down;

But my destination is always met.

Lost the Love of my life;

Her sacrifice I will carry with me.

Though the lost was significant; I Love my life even more.

Feeding my spirit-man by reading God's living word;

Faith, Hope and Love keeps me covered and prayed for.

When the well dried up;

My tears just begun to fall.

Facing the uncertainty of the unknown;

As much as I hurt inside, I know I must move on.

Dang. I am still in Love.